He Wasn’t A Bad Guy 2

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“I was in a relationship for most of my teenage years. He wasn’t a bad guy, but I think long relationships can be toxic when you’re that young. That’s the age when you’re supposed to be figuring yourself out. And that can be hard if you’re completely focused on another person. I was always more worried about ‘us’ than I was worried about myself. I’d make decisions just to maximize our time together: the places I worked, the classes I chose, the friends I spent time with. Recently I looked through my high school photos, and I don’t have a single picture when I’m not with him. And, I don’t know… it feels like some of those memories should have been mine alone.”

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I was in a relationship for most of my teenage years.
Aku punya pacar selama masa remajaku.

He wasn’t a bad guy, but I think long relationships can be toxic when you’re that young.
Pacarku bukan laki-laki yang jahat, tapi aku rasa pacaran yang lama bisa menjadi beracun ketika kamu begitu muda.

That’s the age when you’re supposed to be figuring yourself out.
Itu usia di mana kamu seharusnya memahami jati dirimu.

And that can be hard if you’re completely focused on another person.
Dan itu sulit dilakukan jika kamu benar-benar fokus ke orang lain.

I was always more worried about ‘us’ than I was worried about myself.
Aku selalu cemas akan “kami” daripada cemas akan diriku sendiri.

I’d make decisions just to maximize our time together: the places I worked, the classes I chose, the friends I spent time with.
Aku akan membuat keputusan hanya untuk memaksimalkan waktu bersama kami: tempatku bekerja, kelas yang aku pilih, teman bermainku.

Recently I looked through my high school photos, and I don’t have a single picture when I’m not with him.
Belakangan ini, aku melihat-lihat foto sekolahku, dan aku tidak satu pun foto di mana aku tidak bersamanya.

And, I don’t know… it feels like some of those memories should have been mine alone.
Dan, rasanya sebagian kenangan itu harusnya milikku sendiri saja.